Today's thoughts InkTober Day 2:
Okay. So I'm committed. I was busy today and was not sure how I was going to squeeze in something for day 2 before it ends. And I was going to write something about what is going on internally behind the scenes. I felt encouraged kicking off day 1 yesterday but doubts began to creep in. .
Today's theme was Noisy. I picked up my calligraphy pen and Indian Ink and decided to listen to the doubts and the noise inside me and let it translate on paper. I was not sure where it was going.
As I was drawing, it felt like I was noise: "Oh, this is going to be so shitty. Why are you bothering anyway? What good is it going to do? Why are you being selfish? Spend your energy trying to save the world instead of yourself. You'll quit by day 10. It's not like you like this painting anyway". I could keep going.
"Be Still My Soul", I prayed as I kept going trying not to give up. I learned something in what I thought was a useless painting:
Some say that creating art is an external struggle: the struggle to refine the work to wow people. I believe that. But I also believe creating art is an internal struggle as well: the struggle to breakthrough the noise. To show up regardless. To commit regardless. The aim in this one is not to wow an audience. The aim is to get my head out of my own ass.
And I have no idea how or what I'm going to do tomorrow.